Shaken.

Hello fellow bloggers,

I like to believe that I am a strong women. I like to believe that I am an incredibly independent, self-sufficient, bold, fearless women who can take on the world. But last night I had a breaking moment. An experience that shook me to my core. An experience that knocked me to my knees.

As you may imagine, I was pretty restless last night and as I tossed and turned throughout the night all I could keep thinking was “I can’t handle this. God this is too much.” Sometimes my heart feels like this world is too much to handle. Sometimes I feel like the hurt of the world seems to heavy for my heart. In 2 Chronicles 20:12, Jehoshaphat prayed, “We do not know what to do, but our eyes are on you.” And last night that was the cry of my heart. I came to a point where all I could say was “I don’t know what to do.” And the Lord responded by saying, “just keep your eyes on me.”

As I looked through the Bible, I read where at times God allowed more trials, more pressure, than His children could bear. Elijah, the powerful prophet of God who held back the rain had a time when the trial must have been bigger than his ability to handle it. Once Paul wrote to the people at Corinth (2 Corinthians 1:8), that him and his followers faces trials “far beyond our ability to endure.” David, the great war hero and man after God’s own heart, told the Lord that “troubles without number surround me” and “I cannot see.” Another time David said, “save me, O God, for the water has come up to my neck.”

So what do we do when we feel like the world is to much to handle? What do we do when we feel like this is to much to bear? We trust Jesus. We rely on God. After Paul wrote that his trial was bigger than his ability to endure, he offered this solution: “But this happened that we might not rely on ourselves but on God, who raises the dead. (2 Corinthians 1:9). Paul recognized that during this overwhelming time of trouble, that he couldn’t handle it alone. His trial forced him to focus more on the power of God, and trust that God would be his redeemer, his rescuer.

Last night, as I feel to my knees, all I could do was fix my eyes on Jesus, the author and perfecter of my faith. All I could do was trust that when I am weak, he is strong. All I could do was admit that apart from Him, I can do nothing.

Our God is so good. Will you take a moment today to trust that when you are weak, He is strong. Will you take a moment to stop and say thank you. To stand still and rest in his presence. To take time and just BE.


Love you all,

Jenna